现在的我真的很郁闷。 上了大学，烦恼的事完全不同了。 以前烦恼功课赶不上，课业不明白，考试不理想。 那是学生的烦恼。 现在上了大学，一个礼拜只有三天课，没错，是很轻松。 每天可以睡到自然醒。 没有课本，没有测验。 不需要烦恼书念了没，笔记复习了没，功课做了没。 但也渐渐开始烦恼，自己的价值到底有多少？
上了大学才发现有很多事情都没认真的做好，想学很多东西，想掌握很多技巧，想比别人略胜一筹，想尝试很多自己认为不可能做到的事。 但有时候真的害怕自己拼过头，反而是件坏事。 毕竟我比其他人多浪费了两年时间。 真的很想爬得比别人高，跑得比别人快。 真的很想让时光倒流，把那些错过和失去的东西补足。
今天下午参观了学长的展廊会，见到了很多社会人物。 那是个成人的场合，没有儿戏，很正派，很壮观，也让我很恐惧。 想到数年后，我也得和他们一样，我真的很害怕。 我害怕交际，害怕步入社会，害怕以后的日子。
这段日子，group work让我很头痛。 我真的很希望大家可以团结把事情做好，也希望队长不要再那么固执了。 不耐烦和满口粗话是解决不了问题的。 真的很希望所有的不愉快可以快快过去，就这么简单，可以吗？
p/s 曼切斯特开始入冬了。 今天疯狂地在摄氏零度下摄影。 冻死我了。
谢谢我的同伴-卡特，我想她也冻坏了。
气象报告说过几天会开始下雪了。 生命中的第一场雪，会是怎样的呢？ =)
Believe in yourself.
ReplyDeleteSorry if I looked a bit 'stalkish' but thanks to google translate, I can get a slight grasp of the idea of your feelings.
I feel the same thing when I was here. Dengar apa yg my friends experience, it seems they learn a lot. Can't deny that I'm a bit jealous of them, but I believe, I've made the right choice. I can agree that we're not really getting to somewhere, currently, but I always look at people who experienced all of this, our seniors. They can survive it,they can manage it, and I'm sure we're gonna overcome it. So don't worry about now, cause from what See Sern said, first year is just to enjoy. We'll learn something new eventually, but since this is uni life, 80% of them is learned from outside the classroom. I think maybe because A-level experience was just like SPM (study study study and BAM, exam) but now, we're experiencing the real new uni life. Don't afraid with it, we'll learn it together :)
About your group problem, don't let it affect you so much. Because you is you. Just do your best and make them regret their mistake. When you got your task, do it at your best, impress them. This is what I do and it seems working cause I can't use my verbal directly to have a discussion with my groupmate.
Discussed with Hakym about some problems in our course, he said the best way to deal with it is contact our own tutor. Especially during PDP meetings. Cause before the meeting, we have to write in form, what we've learn and what we expect to learn in the next sem. So they'll discuss it in the meeting. Don't be afraid!
Back to the first line I stated above, yeah, believe in yourself. You're a great girl with a great determination. You just have to be more confident of yourself. I'm sorry if I'm not that a great friend to tell you all about this, but I really really care about you. Sometimes I treat you as my own little sister, dunno why lol :P . But, yeah, believe in your ability, and if you're thinking your ability is not great enough, keep improving it, not worrying about it.
Too long? lol I pendekkan.
'Stop worrying and start learning on how to overcome it'
Sorry if you're tired to read this and if what I said is not making sense at all about what you wrote, if yes, blame it on google translate haha.
I'm always here as listener, and Haseef and also the seniors too. Don't let the sadness overwhelm your life. kay?
Cheers! ^o^
OMG Just saw this. hahaha You write essay ke?! This is not James' website la! haha Btw, thanks! Alamak, you memang stalker ah, google translate somemore! Lemme check how it translates. Sorry sometimes im emotional. You know la, girls memang owez not in the mood, ignore me jer hehe The best thing in Manchester is to have you and haseef! Thank you!
ReplyDeleteYour comment is longer than my entry. hahaha
ReplyDeleteSorry hahahaha! I was in bored mode when I was writing this, just excuse my randomness lol~ It's ok to be emotional, just let it out to keep yourself better, don't keep in yourself cause there'll be people out there who'll like to listen and help. Hehe
ReplyDeleteOwh, and another one, my stomach feel weird after drinking your red dates soup, sorry I couldnt finish it. Don't kill me! -o-
eh, is your nasi lemak problem! not my red dates soup!
ReplyDeleteNo laa! Your bau soup is so strong!! I can't tahan! But the taste is nice laa~~ Just the smell only -,-
ReplyDeleteyerrrr, haseef likes what, u weird.
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